Rebuilding

Holiday season prompts some thoughts about rituals.  It’s Thanksgiving today and I’m thinking about the rituals of the past.  I actually liked Thanksgivings and X’mas, probably for the wrong reasons.  Yet, now, looking out the windows, pondering what kind of non-ritualistic food (too late for brining, stuffing and all the trimmings) I should cook, I [...]

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Exquisite Pain

Days go by.  I wake up sad. I go to bed sad.  But in a very strange way, it makes me even sadder that one day, perhaps soon enough, it will go away.  And I won’t feel what I feel now.  That all of this, what seems like an exquiste pain, will not matter anymore.  [...]

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Death

Couldn’t think of a less morbid title about this subject.  Because it’s what it is – Death. After a series of celebration that was all about festivities and all that are bright and shiny.  Amidst days filled with happiness and love and friendship and family, I was also forced to think about death.   For some [...]

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Losss

Long time ago, there were some loss that I experienced.  The reality is, those loss turned out to be  fortunate for me. I had gains that followed that could not have happened, if those loss did not take place. The turn of events in the long run became favorable to me.  Looking back, if I [...]

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Just want to say

Sometimes, there is just nothing much to say other than:  Let all of this go away. Let all of this pass and mean nothing.  Let me not feel anything.
Sometimes, there just isn’t that much more to feel other than that.

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